Getting my life back in order
Benita Bylicki
Request
In the last 5 years , so many things have happened to me,, 9/2005 my husband of 21 years passed away, 11/2006 my mother died and 15 days later on 12/4/2006 my father joined my mother. After some depression, I came around again and thru a miracle I found and fell in love with a wonderful man. We would like to get our lives in order, but everything seems like one thing after another is attacking us, the sale of my parents home, finacial problems, me with sickness, kidney problems, diabetes, raising 3 more children with special needs,, I need some peace,some order and for all the loose ends in our lives to be settled,. I need for my parents home to sell , to have the money to pay off bills and for us to have a wedding, I need physical healing , emotional well being, the Lord knows my heart, knows my needs the best and I pray all of this to happen soon,,
DEAR LORD, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, I HAD A BRAIN TUMOR IN 1992 AND MY SON WAS DIAGNOSEED WITH SCHITZOPHRENIA THE SAME YEAR AND THEN MY HUSBAND OF 21 YEARS SUDDENLY DIED, I WAS DEVESTATED, WE BECAME AN ESTRANGED FAMILY, I WAS WAITING AFTER TWO BRAIN SURGERIES FOR A NEW KIND OF RADIATIONNNN THAT WORKED AND THE ONY FUN I FOUND WAS GAMBLING ON THOSE SLOT MACHINES, I LOST MY HOUSE AND EVERYTHING WE OWNED, NOT FROM THE GAMBLING BUT FROM MY NOT BEING ABLE TO WORK DURING TREATMENT, MY KIDS BLAMED ME, STILL BLAME ME AND THE PAIN IN SIDE ME IS SO DEEP, I NEED TO TAKE MY LIFE BACK, I NEED TOBREATHE, I NEED TO SAY NO TO LOT OF PEOPLE IN MY LIFE, PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH. A VERY FINE MAN CAME INTO MY LIFE TEN YEARS AGO AND HAS BEEN STRUGGLING WITH EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS NOW, PLEASE GIVE ME THJE STRENGTH TO HELP EVERYONE IN MY LIFE AND STILL KEEP MY SANITY AND BE ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I PRAY THIS TO YOU LORD, SEND ME THE STRENGTH TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE, SO I CAN HAS LESS ANXIETY, LESS DEPRESSION AND BE ABLE TO RUN MY LIFE, BE ABLE TO BE RESPONSIBLE AGAIN, GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO BE ABLE TO REACH OUT AND ASK FOR HELP, LORD HEAR MY PRAYER
My God, it’s me, i’m coming to you know because i’m so confused i’m now 23 years old and i’m doing nothing. I spend so much of my time hiding behind the lies of what I want to be, that I haven’t establishe a real reality for myself. I have quit my job because, i’m searching for something that is somewhere for me I dont know where, thats why i am coming to you my God please, bring peace to me and my heart so i can figure this out, we can figure this out. David is being so patient and good with me but i dont want to continue anymore, I really need you now.