Please pray that God would help my marriage. I love my wife, but I have been far from perfect, so she’s on the fence about leaving me. I want to do my best for God now, but she doesn’t buy it. Please pray that I might be kept strong during this tough time. Help me to remain humble and meek. Just when I feel at my lowest, every new day brings me lower. I pray for encouragement in my heart and spirit. I need God’s help so badly. Thank you.

Hi, I am a 64 year old woman who has known the Lord for over 35 years. I have been having major trials and difficulties for the past few years and there seems to be no let up. I am living with one of my children, a daughter who is 25 years old, dosent know The Lord although I have raised her and her siblings in the Lord as soon as I myself came to know Him. Only one of my children is walking with Him at this time. For the most part, all knew Him and have walked away, but I know that only God knows the condition of their hearts. I ost my husband of 35 years in 2001, and my son, chris n 2003. I remarried, and due to problems with my new husband and the 2 youngest of my children, he divorced me. I lost everything that I had finacially through the divorce including my home. I went to live with one of my children for about 2 years, on and off. My youngest child, a daughter, who has a son, 4 years old and is on social security disability for emotional issues was bouncing from place to place with her son. I too am on disability, so in order for her to have a stable inviourment for her and my grandson, we rented a home together. Her social security payments come to me as her designaed payee since she cannot handle money. I am having a very hard time with her, as due to her ADD and other issues( hypochondriac and panic disorder). Before coming into this living arragement with her, I told her that the lifestyle that she was living had to begin to change. I didi not expect miracles overnight, but it has been a year and she is doing things that are stressing me out to the max. She sleeps most of the day, leaving her son in his room to watch cartoons most of the time, or she will take him in to her room…she knows that if this upsets me, I will take care of him…in other words she manipulates. Since I get her money, to use for her and her son…actually it is used along with my income to keep a roof over all of our heads, buy food etc. I own a car, and since she is spliting the bills . or should be, I let her use my car when she needs to. She told me that she is ging to New York this coming April and she wants to take the car…she is leaving the baby with me( by the way, she didn’t ask if it was ok…she just planned her trip accordingly) I told her yesterday that I would not let her take my car to New York, that if she wanted too go, she would have to rent one. She cursed me up one side and down the other telling me that she was going to leave, take her income and make me lose the house we live in. I am not well and have not been for quiet awhile. I am not handling this stress very well. As I said in the beginning of this post, I AM a Christian, but lately, for the past few months, the strain and stress of this situation,and there are more that I won’t even get into, I have lost my peace, Joy and I am constantly tired and anxious, depressed, what ever. I pray daily for the Lord to restore unto me the Joy of His salvation. I recognize my faith faltering……Actually this lose of Faith, Peace and Joy are disturbing me more than her behavior. I feel lost sometimes. I know the Word, Be anxious for nothing but through Prayer with thanksgiving let your requests be made known and The PEACE that passes all understanding will gueard your heart and Mind in Christ Jesus. I know this, I pray this but still….I can’t sem to overcome. Now, I am feeling that as in the end times approaching, my faith is going away, or I am having a hard time holding on to it….I still believe, I love The Lord, but I feel like am failing……..Please, can someone tell me how I can get this peace and Joy back reguardless of the situation I am going through> I have been trying to stop smoking and suceed for a time, but when all of this starts to hit the fan……and like I said, I have other issues going on at the same time, I fail and start to smoke…then I stop again. I feel like my life is out of control and I just want Jesus to take control. I pick up the Word, try to read and even that, I seem to have lost…..Please, can someone pray for me and help me, I just want my relationship with the Lord back where it was years ago. Thank You for reading this and hopefully responding, Carol. I find myself lately asking God to take me home…and then I get scared that maybe I won’t go with Him……it’s crazy I know, and I have no one with whom to share all of this…I don’t want to give it all to my Pastor and his wife. Thanks, again!!!!!